Retirement

For the past weeks a silly picture/idea has been haunting me. Believe me or not...it's what they call "retirement".

No, i'm not 65. I'm just turning 32.

so why retirement?

Whilst munching on my chicken avocado wrap yesterday, i told myself....maybe i'll be growing old alone. So.. if that's the case, i should really be planning a retirement kind of lifestyle that would still keep me perky, up and going. I know loneliness will still be part of my shadow...but hey, i'm but human.

so yeah, i've been thinking. perhaps look for a small town/village. end my I.T. years and maybe work as a postwoman in the local cute postshop. I haven't really thought if i'd wear red. I wouldn't want to look like "Postman Pat". Perhaps wear blue?

Then have a small cottage to myself with a small fireplace. maybe have a dog. locate myself somewhere near the river (definitely not in a place where floods would bug me)... then during weekend, go fishing and catch just enough to last me the whole week. Maybe plant a veggie garden as well. Lessen the expenses. hahaha.

am i losing it? maybe. who cares. it's just me anyways.

pathetic? i don't think so. it's better to plan the future, not feeling sorry for one's self if there's no hubby to share it with...rather, just go forth and paint a picture of you...solidly believing that things will be okay if not challenging while living on my own. It has been for the past few months anyways.

And hey...so many people around the world have their own issues. some far worse than what i'm dealing with (my own emotional turmoil downward spiral non sense).

don't you just hate it when hormones play tricks on you? geez.

oh and yeah..bloody hell...yesterday, all of a sudden i was wishing i had a boyfriend!!!!

DUH!!!!! EEEEKKKK!!!!!!

i'll be fine! i can handle this....!!!!!!!

hahaha...this is what's good when you've got a blog and not all of your friends are aware that exists. you can just blabber all u want without being judged. :)