The Sudden Surge (Biglaan)

Hiccup. Hold on to the tears.
Sob. Can’t… need to allow it all to flow.
Sigh. When the phase of acceptance is the only liberation from the pain..perhaps…eventually..time will tell.

You hear a familiar tune on your mp3 player then a sudden gush of memories all flows back. Muddled up emotions of anger and pain swells up in your throat……can’t swallow…..as if you’ve consumed so much anguish to push it down…

You wallow for a while. Sometimes joke with friends that you’ve got that invisible “L” (Loser) sign on your forehead….laugh it out…. But deep inside thats what you feel about yourself.

Asking yourself what have you done to deserve that, when all you did was love so much……..is that a crime? Punishable with scars of betrayal and unwanted self preservation.

Warp back to reality.

And leave the momentary anguish of memories.



6 Cycle Mind – Biglaan (Permission to Shine)

Nandito nakaukit pa rin sa puso ko,
Nang sabihin mong wag na lang.
Nandito nakatatak pa rin sa isip ko,
Kung paano mong tinalikuran ang lahat.

Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss

Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.

Hindi ba natin kayang magkunwari,
at sabihing sige na lang
Hindi ba natin kayang dayain,
Ang mga yakap sa tuwing lumalambing

Kay bilis ba't umalis, nakakamiss

Na bigla lang di ko man lamang nalaman
Na mawawala,
Na bigla lang di mo man lamang naisip
Na idahan-dahan.
Hindi ako sanay sa biglaan,
Unti unti na lang sanang nawala.